Sunday, October 17, 2010
It took a while...
What is so funny. is that independent and successful are two words I always misspell.
Friday, June 11, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Wow. Funny. Writing this made me realize how utterly exhausted I am. My body and mind actually just told me to stop fucking moving and chill out.
Today was great though. Performed for 1st grade kiddies in the morning and am now in rehearsal till midnight.. I really love being this busy.
Best thing about today though was this.
A kid came up to me after the performance and said
"When I grow up, I want to be a Chemisist, a Paleontologist, a Movie Star, a Rock Star and a Warrior. KEEP PEACE! (With some hand sign)".
They inspire me. Think about how when you were a kid and you used to have all these dreams and aspirations for your future like nothing can stop you. I love that. So much.
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Screw me. I suck. And instead of making it somewhere in 10 minutes. It is taking me an HOUR!!
Lesson learned? Stop playing with blackberry.
Time on public transport should be used to people watch. Get inspiration. Eyes up, on the stops and during transit you can be nosy and snoop in on peoples lives and personalities.
And great, yet another train that passes that is not mine.
Everyone keeps leaning over the yellow line to see if the train is coming. I do it too. Why? I don't know. It surely doesn't make it go faster.
Now I'm happy, someone next to me decided to start singing.
I hate you mta.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Our bodies are smart. Don't take them for granted. Take care of yourself and they will respond. Your body is not just flesh bones and muscle, it is a living breathing part of you just like your brain and heart. Just because it is easier to relate to symbols (brain-thought, heart-feelings), we sometimes forget that hand and palms and wrists are so intimate and full of emotion.
Gluten vs Non Gluten
I think it is my need to overdo things. Let me explain.
When something is gluten free, I will eat more of it. Cupcake, bread etc.
When it includes gluten. Because of the affect I know it has on me, I avoid it, or if I cheat I have it once in a while.
So wouldn't I be healthier if I just avoided the sugar filled gluten free products and stuck with cheating once in a while?
probably...
But I have this sugar addiction that I can't give up and to me abusing gluten free foods is like abusing pot. And cheating once in a while is like doing the occasional rec drug. Make sense?
So the best thing to do would be to do none of it. OR to stop gluten free consumption all together and cheat once in a while.
Because I sort of think my body runs on sugar, not oxygen.
that was kind of annoying wasn't it.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Happily ever after
To trust strangers (Timone and Pumba)
Fall in love at first sight
Put love above all else
Sing about how you feel
Want what you can't have
Live with 7 strange men
All dogs go to heaven
Don't sit on walls because you will break and no one will be able to fix you
Don't cry wolf
Honey is the yummiest of all yummies
Surround yourself with people that are as weird as you are
Make friends with animals, they can talk
Enemies can become best friends
Take risks
The Lady will fall in love with the Tramp
All the woman are perfect looking
A spoon full os sugar makes the medicine go down
Believing your dream is a reality
to be continued..
Monday, May 24, 2010
Poor Wishes
Needing and wanting, are they meant to be different? Why? Because we don't want what we necessarily need? I think we want things because we need them. But we don't allow ourselves to believe we need it because of what can happen to us if we don't get it. When you want someone to love you, you make yourself believe that it is selfish or not worth thinking that you need it. Because needing love is weak right? Desperate? Needing success is bullshit right? Because you can live happily ever after being mediocre or satisfied with "okay-ness". fuck that. I think needing things make them more powerful. Makes you more powerful. Let yourself need something and feel like you are dying when you don't get it. Then you'll need something even more and fight even harder just so you don't feel that way ever again. If you don't ache for something and sacrifice a part of you to get it then you're not really living. Who gives a shit if you fail. Stop worrying about who will judge you if you don't get it or if you don't deserve it. The only person that can judge you is yourself, and even then try not to. It's easier said than done and this is not coming from a person that is good at this. But I believe that it is okay to allow yourself to need people, things, goals, accomplishments, love, jealousy, hate, food, chocolate, clothes,sex, money, hunger, loneliness. Yes, sometimes you need things that make you feel like shit or selfish. That's what makes needing things that are "good" for you even more worth while. Who is to say what's good or bad anyway. But thats another conversation.