Neither Heaven Nor Earth!! Opens tonight 8pm at the New School theatre on 151 bank street!!! Don't miss it! www.poliglottheater.org for tix. Ask me for discount codes

Doing things out of character isn't bad. Doing things that are within the limitations of you character is. Don't limit yourself. Take chances, make mistakes, risks. Just fucking go for it, fall on your face, break some bones. I promise it will be ok. Its good for you.

How important is sleep? I have hardly slept in the last few days and I am tired yes but I kind of like this feeling and am thinking of not sleeping much tonight. But I look like shit and am acting like a bit of a creeper.
Wow. Funny. Writing this made me realize how utterly exhausted I am. My body and mind actually just told me to stop fucking moving and chill out.
Today was great though. Performed for 1st grade kiddies in the morning and am now in rehearsal till midnight.. I really love being this busy.
Best thing about today though was this.

A kid came up to me after the performance and said
"When I grow up, I want to be a Chemisist, a Paleontologist, a Movie Star, a Rock Star and a Warrior. KEEP PEACE! (With some hand sign)".

They inspire me. Think about how when you were a kid and you used to have all these dreams and aspirations for your future like nothing can stop you. I love that. So much.

Do you ever put yourself in a situation where you feel so comfortable you have to say something that makes you absolutely vulnerable? And then once you say it, you get this weird out of breath kind of feeling- its extremely subtle though. I don't really know for sure what it is but..I think. That moment. That's when you realize, that you don't quite know yourself.

Not paying attention on the subway doesn't mean you're a new yorker, it means you're not.

Screw me. I suck. And instead of making it somewhere in 10 minutes. It is taking me an HOUR!!

Lesson learned? Stop playing with blackberry.

Time on public transport should be used to people watch. Get inspiration. Eyes up, on the stops and during transit you can be nosy and snoop in on peoples lives and personalities.

And great, yet another train that passes that is not mine.

Everyone keeps leaning over the yellow line to see if the train is coming. I do it too. Why? I don't know. It surely doesn't make it go faster.

Now I'm happy, someone next to me decided to start singing.

I hate you mta.

People relate body pain to emotion. When complaining about my right shoulder this past week I have gotten multiple explanations from several people. But one person said something today that stuck. One side of your body is your mothers side and the other your father. The minute he said that, I understood.

Our bodies are smart. Don't take them for granted. Take care of yourself and they will respond. Your body is not just flesh bones and muscle, it is a living breathing part of you just like your brain and heart. Just because it is easier to relate to symbols (brain-thought, heart-feelings), we sometimes forget that hand and palms and wrists are so intimate and full of emotion.

Gluten vs Non Gluten

I see my food allergies as more than what they are.
I think it is my need to overdo things. Let me explain.
When something is gluten free, I will eat more of it. Cupcake, bread etc.
When it includes gluten. Because of the affect I know it has on me, I avoid it, or if I cheat I have it once in a while.
So wouldn't I be healthier if I just avoided the sugar filled gluten free products and stuck with cheating once in a while?

probably...

But I have this sugar addiction that I can't give up and to me abusing gluten free foods is like abusing pot. And cheating once in a while is like doing the occasional rec drug. Make sense?

So the best thing to do would be to do none of it. OR to stop gluten free consumption all together and cheat once in a while.

Because I sort of think my body runs on sugar, not oxygen.

that was kind of annoying wasn't it.